I stopped smoking pot and doing occasional illegal drugs for 11 months. I just started again as a way of coping with depression, but I knew it wouldn’t hurt my social life either. I haven’t drank for a year now… I think 13 months actually. I don’t know if I want to start. I miss my social life, and I turned down so many social events in the last year because I didn’t want to be tempted by drugs and alcohol. I stopped so that I could improve my depression, anxiety, whatever else, but I am as depressed I think in that year as I was when I was drinking and smoking pot. I just don’t know what else to do with my friends anymore, really. I miss the old days so much when we all knew how to have fun without drugs and alcohol. But, of course I am in my last year of high school and its all people want to do, with parties and everything. Its so casual for them, smoking a joint or drinking, and it was such a big deal to me. I just want to be able to be happy… or to be casual and chill out and smoke a joint. I don’t know if it will screw me up more in the long term…I don’t want to go the alcohol route as its a depressant, but I am so incredibly sad I was almost put in a mental hospital for a med change to find an anti depressant that worked because I’ve been on two that made me way worse than I’d ever been naturally and suicidal. Anyway… what are some things I can do with my friends in our last year of high school that will build memories and actually be fun without substances? And what should I do about the substance issue personally? Thank you very much for your help and reading my rambling.
Yes, that’s what I was saying…. drinking is a depressant and therefore a bad idea… and I have been on anti depressants, an SSRI and an an SNRI, which would be Effexor…which made me crazy, sadly. I am in therapy, have useless coping mechanisms and have a psychologist and psychiatrist. Though, thanks for trying.
Hmm depression fixed with a depressant. Seem a little backwards to you? Dont use alcohol for and anti-depressant. Use medications that are prescribed by a doctor. An SSRI would be a good start, dont know if you were on an ssri before, but you can also try the new generation effexor and abilify too. Therapy would be the best for you though. Sounds like you need some coping mechanisms to get over the feelings of loss. (albeit loss of sociallity)
Let it be known. The "old days" are just that.. the old days. These are the new days and you cant relive your past, even if you did get back into that same social circle of getting blasted every night, it wont seem the same to you because you are depressed.
Go see a therapist/ psychiatrist and get something that will work for you before your depression worsens, and NOTHING makes you happy.